Begining of Journey at the other side of the door..

Dear Friends..

I hope you all are having wonderful time with your loved ones. Love is in air everywhere. I wish your love always support you through all good and bad times. I think relations always grow stronger through tough times, we can share good time with good friends but for tough times we need someone very close to our heart. Sachin and my relation grew stronger with each tough time. Every tough time brought us more closer, we saw a new aspect of each other in those tough times.

Life at the other side of the door: New life, new people..everything was new, completely different. It was a different world. The only person I knew at this side of door was Sachin. We restarted a new life in a world of unknown people with our love. Our plane landed on LA Airport and for me it was like a dream. We stayed in DaysInn for 1 month. Every morning, I used to go with Sachin to his bus stop and used to stand over there till sachin's bus disappear. That feeling was full of emptiness but passage of day brings the hope that Sachin is on his way back to me. Even after 6 yrs, 6pm is my favorite time. At 6 pm bus always brought my hope to me. Hope is like the dream that is always just one step ahead of the reality. Hope of having him with me. One day I was coming back from bus stop and I saw a lady in Indian dress crossing the road. You will be thinking what's a big deal in that. But at that moment I was like a child who just found his lost favorite toy. I ran behind her and called her. I asked her where she lives and asked her can I come to meet her. She was little shocked, very obvious at any side of the world you do not invite yourself to visit someone. When I think of that incident, I always laugh on my self, I was so naive at that time. 

But believe me that was one of the happiest moments for me, I still cherish that moment. I had the feeling that we are not alone in this side of world.

You will not believe I went to her home by my own invitation, she was surprised. Obvisously she was not expecting me. After staying 1 month in a hotel room, first time in 1 month I smelled fragrance of a home. I cried, literally I cried. She was amazed, what is a big deal in coming to someone's home. She could not understand why I am crying. Feeling of being in a home, for me that was a big deal. we became very good friends. I used to call her "didi (big sister)" and her kids used to call me "Massi"(Aunt). We shared a very good relation with that family. Very good time. Life at this side of the door was becoming little familiar to us.

Rest of the journey is on his way.. coming soon to meet with you..

Love you all.

Keep reading

Chhaya

  

Journey towards Dream land

Dear Friends,

Howz life treating you. Sorry for keeping you all frozen in the moment of that night for so long. Word frozen is so close to our heart,  at least after staying away from our home for 6yrs. Frozen emotions, frozen relations and frozen time. I still remember those days when I used to cry after having a glimpse of even an unknown Indian. I used to feel like I saw my family member. Now after 6yrs, I do not feel the same any more. That's why I said I am frozen now.

That Frozen Night: Let me take you back for a minute to my that frozen night in the month of June.  Night with full of frozen moments. We were speechless after reading his email, he gave us a glimpse of his mean personality. But we could not step back at that moment, we were already late to change our minds. Next week we had our flight to catch our dreams. Those dreams which has already started to fade. The only best thing was that we were together at that moment.
I have realized one thing through out journey of my life: that moments either good or bad, always stays with you for rest of your life. People says that time is a great healer, I agree but not completely. You can forget those moments for some time, but you can never forget the feelings attached with those moments. Feeling of getting frozen at that moment will be with me always. How can I forget that person who brought that moment in our lives. I may forgive him, but can I forget that person. No..Never...

Day of our flight: Sunrise of 6th June 2007 brought a mixture of emotions with it. Excitement, fear, happiness, separations...I am amazed how a human heart can feel so many emotions at the same time. That day was completely unique. I can still feel myself standing over there looking in the eyes of everyone. Eyes full of emotions, full of fear, excitement and tears. With all these emotions, we reached Delhi to catch our flight to LA. By this time I have not felt that I am really leaving my parents, my home and my family until, I encountered with another frozen moment of my life. Moment to say "Good Bye".  By closing my eyes even today I can imagine me standing at the one side of the door and my Mom on the other side. We both were crying like someone has removed our heart without anesthetizing us. Even after 6 yrs I could not cross that door. It seems my Mom is still standing at that side of door looking at me with tears in her eyes...and said her "Good Bye". Most difficult "Good Bye" of my life so far.

Uff..This post was really full of emotions. right??
But remember this is not only happening to me..I am representing all of us. We all have crossed that side of the door in our lives..
Keep reading. Talk to you soon.
Love you all..
Chhaya