Just before we left

Dear Friends..
Thank you so much for such a lovely response for my first blog. My very good friend asked me, when I became Chhaya (Shadow) from Chhavi, very interesting question. He made me think, actually I became Chhaya exactly at that moment when my Plane left India. I think we all are here Chhaya (shadows) of our original self, are n't we?? We are not what we used to be. I never felt myself in last 6 years.
Anyways: let's talk about just before we left...
I never thought that I will come to US, never even in my dreams. Sachin (my husband) finished his PhD after we got married in 2006. His senior and other friends were applying for Post Doctoral fellowship in US, so he did. He was only applying for Scientists of Indian Origin, with the feeling that these people were one day at our place. They must have started their journey like us and will understand our transition very well. Sachin applied at few places and finally got position at University of southern California (USC), LA in lab of a Indian Professor with really impressive research and good publications. The university was good and name of Los Angles itself makes you dream big. So, we were very happy. Everything was looking perfect, we started planning of moving here. We were very excited, full of dreams...
Got our visa without any problem, bought the tickets. But something was not right somewhere. Sachin's new boss was not replying to his emails. We got scared. Something was not right.I still remember that night when Sachin got the email from his new boss.
I can still feel that moment of  uncertainty. Even after 6 yrs,by closing my eyes I can still see ourselves standing frozen in the center of the room, our first encounter with fear, fear of our wrong decision.  

I leave you all today with this feeling and will get back to you soon.

Thanks for your love and motivation.
Keep posting your comments.

Love you all..
Chhaya..